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Been a while since i brewed thoughts to blog. Something that got me thinking about things yet again.

For recent weeks, Singapore had been shaken by a tragedy which was really unexpected and saddening. 5 fine young athletes drowned after their dragonboat capsized after a strong current struck. They were 50m within the pontoon. They weren’t wearing lifevests and it probably is the real reason why they actually drowned. Their luckier teammates struggled to survive with the help of luck and the nearby people.

It got me thinking about how clouded we were about doing our sports and not cherishing our lives. Often, are we stupid to say “Never Say Die”? What is the consequences of our actions? To our friends and family.

I feel guilty when i think back and remembered committing a serious mistake. Life vests in total bad condition were still being used and i let it pass.

Just last week, i attended a friend’s wake. He drowned in a swimming pool at his hostel in China. It was believed that he overworked his body at gym and blacked out himself at his swimming workout. It is sad to hear about him, especially for someone of his profile; First class hons student and just happily married less than a year ago to his JC sweetheart.

I feel it is ok to be fearful of death. I fear death a lot now. I felt otherwise before after won a classic race with my kids.

Because I have not achieved enough yet.

Do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?
If you see her go clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.
Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.

I actually see both directions… Weird but true…

Got back from St james’ which was a blessing from Kuozhen, who put me on the Powerhouse guest list. It was fun at the start but suddenly the moment the live singers appeared on stage(we were at boiler room), people started leaving the dance floor.

I seriously thought the whole sentosa thing was a turn off. Just because of one person. I have no idea what is really happening but it felt dead and sian whenever anything got to him. Spoilsport…

Hanging out with a totally different bunch of friends is really thought-provoking. It is a time of exploring more about myself and learning more about different kinds of people. I have to agree with Amy on what she said the other night in my car with pc. “Ted has become more ‘daring’ “. I hope i got the right word but if its not, its really something along that line. Yes i am a regular clubber now. As i said, i have learnt so much more about myself. Two people laughed when i told them, “yes i dance”. Haha.. i am liking the dance more than the booze in fact.

Almost “bring it on” with 3 21-yr-old girls on National day eve at obar. It was alot of fun being the ones “accepted” by them; one was pushing each other to us. I think some guys are so hard up; guys horde around them, buying them drinks to get into their good books and some indians even use their arms to fend off incoming dancers like us. Losers! That was a night i saw the most number of brawls: 3. And also real life gangsters chasing a single target. Scary…

It is nice to feel that my newly reunited buddy is like a brother to me… He can take my shit =p

I really should not be saying this. I feel so much more relaxed after mum has flew off to Hokkaido. Ok i feel guilty saying it now. However, it feels a lot better to have everyone know this.

Seriously, i wonder who cares about me right now. Here’s me calling out for attention now.. Damn!!

I hide too much and am careful when i say personal things to people i know. Past experience has made me feel this way. It is really hard for me to tell someone a secret of mine.

This post is so random… I need to destress!

And dun ever believe your girlfriend when she says there is nothing between her and a colleague when they are at the centre of a scandalous gossip… Quite likely that it is true… It all starts

Ok i am done!

Finally the week came to an end. Not going anywhere for a holiday felt like a waste but i do think a holiday for the mind was what i needed. Just doing whatever comes to my mind.

Gym and studying for my SCJP (Sun certified java programmer) exam pretty much occupied my week.

Also The team got 4th for both guys and girls… very relieved…

It’s one of those ultra random ideas of my brother. Taken during a cousin’s wedding dinner.

Been a while since i could find the effort to pen something down. Now here i am on the NEL waiting for the punggol station to be announced as the next destination. The past weeks seem like an endless journey for me. I have not reach anywhere nor have i found a “destination” to go to.

The following ten items pretty much sums up what has happened since my last post…

1. Work
2. Keeping Mum company
3. Jason’s Wedding on June 2 2007
4. Meeting up with friends and bumping into old friends
5. Gathering the desire to train
6. Getting my java certification
7. Developing a Flex Application
8. Find my way back into love…
9. Clubbing
10. Getting the dboat itch

Ok this sounds gross. I actually enjoy my time at the toilet during my
work week. It’s the best escape from all that stress. You get
protected by the four corners of the cubicle. In that enclosed space,
there is so much peace and thoughts are much clearer.

I have this problem when it comes to meeting people. It’s rather hard
for me to be a initiator of conversation. This is something I am
trying to work on right now. Not too sure what is the right approach.
Maybe I really do not have much to talk about. Always end up talking
about canoeing and work. Yes I am boring.

I have been bringing Sienna around alot and in just 3 days, we have cleared close to 500 km together.Weekends have never been so enjoyable. Ok i have not updated everyone about it. Will post some lovely pics online. Maybe after my reservist next week.