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Time is running out for my marathon plans. I better push further in my runn=
ing. Work is getting more slack for these few weeks and I am itching badly =
for my runs. Hopefully I dun feel drained when I get home after work. Its s=
ickening if you are aiming for long distance. 4mths with 20 km weekly milea=
ge should be achievable. That is a total of 320km. Tuesday 5km, thursday 5k=
m and sunday 10-13km. Need to get my running addiction back.=

A couple of days back, we hear about the news of a 23-year-old student mass killer who goes around killing 33 people; alot of them being fellow students. I read in papers today that many believed the reason for his deadly intent was due to LOVE with a mixture of a loner-lifestyle and interest in guns.

This is like an extreme case of unhandled stress and emotions inside this person. All it needs is a blow/punch to that stress. I really wonder how we can help this psycho before the tragedy happened.

Sometimes, when we are so stressed, we get caught up by the stress and make foolish actions. I think the trick is to just hate being angry itself and enjoy the thrill of managing that ‘monster’ inside. Throw aside that ego and think of others before self. This is not the most perfect way but it’s my way of controlling my anger. Most imptly, just forgive and SMILE!!

One topic that night: do you have a best friend?. What do we consider as our best friend? Is he/she someone whom we can tell everything or someone who will never say no to you?

It is rather difficult for me to point the “My best friend” finger at somebody. I am a rather independent person. I prefer to make my own decisions and never liked being a follower. Maybe that is why I feel like a loner in uni. Or maybe people don’t consider me as their best friends since I am emotionally calm person. I really do care for everyone that matters to me.

Having gone through the previous phase, I think I am in search of my best friend. Someone who I can count on; someone who will look me up and ask how I am. Actually I do consider this dude as one, but problem is I dun like to show the soft side of me to others.

I remember this term “resonance” vividly during JC. It was taught in
physics class where a vibration of a object reaches its maximum
displacement. It locked into my memory when the topic for the A levels
physics practical exam was about “resonance”.

I would like to see my life reach its resonance soon. Everything is
falling into place. It has been a long time I can look forward to
everyday. Well maybe work is something not so easy to want to look
forward to. Learnt quite a bit from my counsellor’s advice: it gets
kinda boring when you know you can do it right anytime and everytime.
An encouragement to keep on improving and believing in myself. With
hardships, comes greater achievements.