Does anyone realise this? There is some sort of true nature in us. It could be good or bad. A true nature which forms the whole big deal about our character. Not trying to think as though i know it all but i have been observing people since i got interested in the whole thing about life as a subject.
You could be someone who really love porn or have this thought of a really hot girl you really fancy on your bed. This might sound really crude but i am trying to put my thought to the extreme. Do you actually wonder why do you have such a thought and why it doesn’t become a reality? Truthfully, having been a coach, i did had that sort of thought along that line; maybe not so extreme. I won’t go to details.
I bring you the word, Self Control. Self Control is an action upon ourselves and only act upon by our consciousness. Control is inflicted when an abnormal situation happens. Abnormal could be anything, even touching someone’s butt whenever you see them.Are you getting the picture? Ok i hope i am not sounding disgusting. Why we probably do not act upon that true nature of ours is that we apply Self Control on ourselves. Meaning to say, character is a filtered/unfiltered form of being. Think of our self control as the filter and what people see of us is our character with all the true nature all hidden inside.
Life is often a question of yes or no. Decisions are made as to how we live our lives every single day. Coupled with our experiences along the way, we probably had some form of conflict with our true nature and self control. Ever thought about skipping class and made yourself feel really good about it. True nature vs a failed self control.
Why i am talking about this subject is that i failed in my own self control. I will not blame booze nor stress. I just know that i am what i am. And i am apologetic for my actions. It struck me when i heard what was observed about me and i feel so so bad about my actions. I am irritated by myself right now…
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